Is it wrong to talk to myself even when there's nobody else
  I'm just checking out that I'm not gone under the water
  Thrown on the beach like a seal ready for slaughter
  Can't you understand that the way things were planned
  It never worked out so I just went crazy
  I took to the drink, like something says its "maybe"
  
  I ain't got no excuse and that's really the news
  Got nothing else to say, that it's my way, it's always my way
  I seem to be running away so often
  
  I'll try anything once and that's the way we should be
  But it's always the same getting caught up again in a habit
  A habit I just can't shake off the way it always turned out
  
  Can you understand it's the way I choose to be
  Everything seems so easy this way but I'm going under fast
  Slipping away
  Am I so crazy