Oh my god! my god this can't be happening!
   god tell me, tell me this isn't real!
   i can't believe all that i have foreseen is finally happening.
   i cannot for a single second stand the way i feel.
   i always knew.
   i always saw it coming.
   enveloped now, encased by my worst fear.
   i've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing,
   i never wanted to cease to exist,
   just disappear.
   fear memories are all that lie ahead.
   never have i felt so lost.
   memories dull my senses.
   fear tragedy is all that lies ahead.
   never have i felt so dead.
   once felt so warm, no i'm fucking freezing.
   i am the once embraced abandoned one.
   i raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing;
   no relief was mine,
   i was burnt, by the sun.